Ok I'm overthinking that I might have ADHD and now I feel like my identity is not how it should be, I feel like it's being attacked because of the medication they can put you on if you have ADHD that removes the lack of engagement I can have with projects. I have bursts of motivation with things like my music, my writing and map making. I can rarely sit down and just work on things. And with medication, I would be able to. But I don't know if I want that. I'm scared that it almost explains why my creativity is so fragmented, why I don't finish half the projects I start, why I can hyperfocus on things for hours. I never considered it. I always presumed (wrongly) that someone with ADHD was just hyper and loud. It's not that at all.