Little bit of neglect with my log as of lately. I was at Kiras this weekend and I just didn't decide to write anything. But I am here still! I've been to work on track 6 for this album and it is more of a deep club banger that I'm going for. I also made the final piece of my halloween outfit which was the alien t-shirt that Postal dude wears. It came out really good. It's only HTV so it wont be as durable as like a DTF, but it's only for one night and it's a blue t-shirt so I likely won't wear it much outside of this one night.
Have a listen to the song here:
I've also become very aware of the passage of time. Just over ten years ago I started high school in 2015 and I miss it a lot. Now, I know that this is just nostalgia being a dick. Nostalgia can feel good in a way, but it is a massive betrayal to reality as it cuts out the bad and keeps the good, making memories appear far better than they actually were. For me, when I remember high school, I remember having loads of fun with my friends, joking around, being excited about going home, all that kind of stuff. That's the nostalgia part. The reality is that there were a lot of tough times in high school for me. The biggest one being my parents divorcing as soon as I started high school, then there was being tormented by girls, then there was being so unbelievably tired in the morning that I could fall asleep, then there was the terrible food I had to eat (I'd usually only have a cookie and a muffin for lunch which was not good), then there was the dull mind numbing lessons that I had to sit through. So it wasn't all good, but my brain intuitively thinks of the positives first.
The reason I'm saying all of this is that I hope that this log will dull out all of the deceptive nostalgia that I might have in years to come, looking back at this point in my life. Yes, there are a lot of great things right now. I have a house, a car, an amazing girlfriend, a job, etc. But not everything is perfect, so don't get ahead of yourself future Mike! You're probably reading this and thinking "Man I wish I could do that all again." but you're honestly probably in a much better position that I am right now, so don't even bother.
Think about this, I do struggle with money at the moment. I can get by, but I don't have much room for luxuries. I have a car, sure, but it's a shitty car that absolutely fucking crawls along the motorway. I have a job, yeah, but it can be so dull and boring some days. I have a girlfriend, yeah, but I can't always see her as much as I'd want to. I have my hobbies, yeah, but I put them off a lot. All of these things have pros and cons, so keep that in mind.
Anyway, future me, go to sleep. It's probably late. Also it's so cold in my house! I even had the heating on before but it's somehow still cold. I've decided to just put a jumper on and leave my thermal pants on for bed.
Tomorrow, my plan is to do some house work stuff. By that I mean I'm gonna do the laundry, hang out the clean clothes (which are likely now not clean since I left them in the washing machine for days) and clean up the kitchen a bit. After that I want to write my book. Yep, I am actually planning this now. Remember the other day when I did like 2 hours of work as I destined myself to do it? I'm gonna do it again. From 5:30 to 7:00 I will do that. Laundry then writing. I need to do writing as I'm not balancing my hobbies as much as I should. It's too much on music and not enough on writing. If I don't balance it then this book will almost never get finished. It's been almost 3 years that I started writing this and it's starting to piss me off how little I've done lately. So, good luck future me again. But not too far in the future, that future Mike can stop being a sad prick reminiscing over shit that wasn't all sunshine and rainbows.